Tuesday, August 30, 2011


I got a delivery today from my father.

It's a locket my mother used to have with a picture of my family in it.

I just...

I can't handle this...

I can't keep up with this.

I want to see my dad so badly but... I can't.

I'm sorry guys.

I'm sorry.

Its just hard to think about it sometimes, but I can't just shove all my feelings in a box.


  1. Lia...I'm sorry. I don't know what I'd do in your situation. You're so strong to carry on like this, even knowing what you know. Tch, what was that guy thinking, sending you that and getting you upset? He shoulda known better.

    Rgh. I wish I had something better to say. Please don't forget that I'm here for you, though. We'll get through this, together.

  2. If you shove all of your feelings into a box, you'll become a robot. That won't help you. You can still feel the pain through the numb, through the cold. Please don't do that to yourself.

    On that note, I hope all the best for you.

    May your days be many and your troubles few.

  3. @ Konaa: I know you are, and that means so much to me. It helps me get through this. It makes me feel like I can do this. Thank you so much for everything, hun.

    @ Dia: Thank you for your kind words. They help a lot. :3

    @ Elaine: Its going to be okay. I just know it. :)

  4. Don't apologize, this is your space to say whatever you want. We support you.

  5. Aaaaah~ How SAD! How positively MISERABLE! Father and daughter locked on the opposite sides of a life or death conflict! Yearning for a life they'll never have again~

    It's enough to make a guy RETCH. What the hell do you think you're DOING, old man!? This ain't a goddamn grey morality TV show, it's a fucking WAR! Do I have to do things to your daughter to make you understand that?

    Cry all you like, but you ain't getting your life back! It's gone. Your bitch of a wife is dead and your bitch of a daughter will be too if you the Big Man feels like it! THIS IS A WAKE UP CALL! THE TIME IS NOW HALF PAST REASONABLE!

  6. I'm sorry, Lia. I thought it would be best if you had something of your mother's.

    Thank you Rhodes for the encouragement. My wife's death was unnecessary but it set me on the right course. You're right, Maggie and I will be together soon and we'll all be able to be a family again.

    I just have to keep trying to make things right for her.

  7. ...Oh. Erm, and...don't you forget it?

    You're kind of a weird fuckin' guy, you know that?

  8. I guess I am a bit odd, but we all are to some degree.

    I hear you, yourself are quite different. There is nothing wrong in that.